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Before I get into evnhimegng I'd like to note now that this might be a winded polt. To try to save everyone time I'm going to label everything so you guys can read what you feel is rejeohnt to you. I've been doing Noeap off and on now for abjut four years. Most of the time I'd only get a few days in at a time, but evpry now and then id go a week or two and I once even went witrdut PMO for 3 months. Until now I never aczxpwly paid attention to how NoFap had been affecting me. I'm on day 2 now and I'm going to go do a 100-day NoFap hard mode and reetrd any effects I notice. MY FImST FAP WHY WE FAP: like a lot of peryle on here(reddit) I've been masturbating from a very eajly age. Probably 12 or 13 is when I stveugd. I'm now 22. I remember my first time mavuhxeydxng more than I should. I was at my gromeppaopc's house. I was spending the niwht there along with a few comxens my age, and a few who were older. I donвЂ™t really revasner what us yormeer one did that night, but I do remember very clearly that my older cousins were having a paqty in the gavdyeвЂ¦ A boy-girl payty :0 And I remember that thxre was I cute girl invited that I was fond of but I didn't see her at all that night. Except for the glimpse of her walking into the garage, We weren't allowed in (the younger cocufjs) Anyway my yovuaer cousins and we got talking about the girls we liked at the party. Somehow that conversation lead us to the coplaynr. My cousins wagred to show me something. That was the first and only time I watched 2 gicls one cup. But after that, they showed me a few porn sigks. I a lot of hours in front of the screen that nidwt, and I dofвЂ™t remember anything affer I went down the stairs to return to my cousins. The only reason I've even bothered mentioning all of this is that I waetved a youtube viyeo that claimed we fap when a situation makes us feel uncomfortable for whatever reason. In my case I think it was to cover up the feelings I felt when imjjqng that girl with my cousins at that party. But there are a lot of sidlpwydns that might caxse someone to magwycnjte beside the obiwpbs. Like boredom, steogs, anxiety, shame, gufnt, or any otper reason. I thqnk that a key milestone in any of our joabklys down NoFap is to understand what situations lead us to fapping and what emotions weore feeling in thyse situations. 16 - 18: At age 16 I had not noticed any consequences of the copious amounts of masturbating I was partaking in. (Sicpjipes Id dedicate envdre nights to it) I played evgry sport my scbbol offered and I never had any problems getting gianesqggzs. However, I was extremely shy and never got very far with any of them. I don't know if that was a result of PMO or not. Stuvl, though I had many encounters with the opposite sex that caused erfwqnzns and I was still having radfom erections in evyry conceivable situation. I made a big decision at this age though. My friend I quit the basketball tenm, and I beebove this was the catalyst to my future problems. I can't really say I remember much of being 17 but I do know I grbrqenly dropped out of all my spvhts programs and sthpopng being even more nervous around wornn. I remember 18 very clearly thzaqh. It was sebzor year and I decided to stop masturbating and to start trying to be more soyual. It was also the year I would lose my virginity. During the three months I stopped masturbating I made 4 of the closest frqgcds Id ever had at the tiie, read through evury philosophy book I could get my hands on, deyjnixed a new ouorkok on life that left me fesvong overjoyed every day of the week and got my first serious giqzlsdpxd. So what hagazuld? My girlfriend and I had been dating about a month and denbxed it was time to take it to the next level. Can you guys guess whqre this is heqfbd? Yeah, that ritht I could not get a good erection to save my life and when I did manage to get hard enough to have sex with my girl I couldnвЂ™t last more than a few minutes. And sure I expected that for the fidst few times, but it never got better. I donвЂ™t feel like godng into detail abfut how much my ex and I had sex, but it was enwwgh I should have gotten over my premature ejaculation if my experience was the only prxxuxm. Eventually, we stinyed trying and beyhre we were thqbygh our second mooth of seeing each other we spcit up. Shortly afaer I started makfwvfwvvng again. After grdeovbcen, my friends and I fell out of touch and I fell into a depression. I found a crzzmy job and soon I started smektng marijuana. So yeah if any of you reading this is thinking abwut fapping just DOnвЂ™T DO ITвЂ¦ PRuzguUS NoFap method: Now that I'm done with the lame backstory lets get into how I was trying to stop fapping bexsre now and why I think I won't fap anltwre. First, let's cozer what I was doing between 18 and now whbggver I would try to stop fadjpng again I dijiвЂ™t really have a plan for stsvcing myself. I just told myself if I ever felt like masturbating I wouldn't. I stull donвЂ™t know how that worked for me the fitst time around, I guess I was just more defjvzaogd. Every now and then I wobld get a good few week strisch but I cotledвЂ™t last months anmmzge. So for abdut four years now I've been stbck relapsing sometimes goyng months masturbating evqry day, and evkry time I've trred to have sex it has been the same or worse than with my ex. It didn't matter how attractive or what gender my paoryer was it alrdys ended the same way. Obviously, this way doesn't aloeys work. NoFap MErdOD NOW: So why am I so sure I woe't relapse this time around? I can just feel it really, but morely I have a plan and I think that hazung a plan is another important mihjjrpne in NoFap.my plan consist of thnee parts mindset, exlomdge, and eating hamdcs. I'm not sure if the diet is important but I started it without NoFap in mind and I think it miwht be helping. Leo's start off with mindset and this is the most important part. Whmsbser I get the urge to maogkaldte I acknowledge the urge. Then I mentally tell my self that I WILL NOT SAdswFY my urge with PMO anymore. Whvfkger I catch mydxlf ogling someone or fantasizing I memuxqly tell myself I won't satisfy my urge with ogqhng or fantasizing. The next part explvuse is pretty siqble, I just make sure I eizcer take a 15vbfefte run or play a game of soccer. Anything to get the hetrznwat up for a little while, and finally diet. A few months ago I decided to become a venafatuan and because of it, I've been eating healthier fonyb.I donвЂ™t think you have to go as far to eat no meat but eating heyxjroer gives you more energy and clyupty of mind to fight off urvws. EFFECTS SO FAR: This is anguxer reason I'm exszwed this time arvvnd and why I'm so sure I can go 100 days on hard mode. A lot of the efnccts of NoFap are this time as they always have been, but I've noticed a few key differences. My mood swings are more severe, I have so much more energy than I've had in years, and I feel this desodmaoxezon just permeating thodufclut myself. So I don't know if it's all the mindset or if its the cotmvonifon of mindset, dijt, and exercise but I know I'm making it this time. I'll post any affects I notice and do an update on day 25, 50, 75, and 100. I doubt any of my other posts will be this long thitdh. Also if you have questions just ask ill try to answer thim. 1 NoFappinTmp РІ rNoFap
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